Spoiled...

So I was having a rotten day.  I woke up to terrible back spasms because I'm not used to using a cane or sleeping for ELEVEN HOURS (wow) and my foot hurt so badly.  I couldn't even walk in the boot without the cane.  I was frustrated and hurting.  My kiddos had to drive me to an appointment and when they picked me up, these were in my seat.  A brand new fluffy and soft body pillow, a refillable ice pack, some candy and they also went and got all of the groceries we needed.  I was so surprised and so happy I cried before I could even sit in the seat.  They were so thoughtful and it completely turned my day around.

It's amazing how far a little thoughtfulness can go.  A VERY long way.  I still fussed at my oldest for spending her money on me, but it was so incredibly sweet and thoughtful.  I am feeling so blessed, loved, appreciative and spoiled.  

So this happened...

Ugh...someday I will learn.  I'm not sure when, but someday I'll learn that this is what happens when I continue to push myself and push myself.  I know my body will eventually give out and I will be down and out, but the need to pay the bills and get everything done is so strong.  I am so mad at myself right now.  I hurt my Achilles tendon from working too hard.  The doctor told me to quit one of my jobs and wear this boot and rest for THREE weeks.  I laughed at him and said, who's going to pay my bills?  I can't do either of those things.  I am in enough pain that I will probably have to take off this week, but after that it has to be back to work.  I am going to really TRY to remember to listen to my body more in the future though.  Most people couldn't keep up with me, much less someone with my health conditions.  I don't want to be defined by fibro or Hashimotos or IBS.  I want to win them, rule them and show them who's boss.  In the end, they win though.  They take over and show me that's all an illusion and they do rule me.  

Stormy Weather

We have been in this pattern of one storm after another.  A few of them have been severe as well.  The rain is super fantastic for the garden and the grass.  Although, isn't this the time of year you don't have to mow so much usually ha ha!  I know a lot of folks think, oh the farmers must love all of this rain, but nope not really.  It's great for the growing crops unless it washes them out, but then there are crops that are rotting because they can't get them harvested and that can be crushing financially.

I am ready for some cooler weather for sure.  This humidity is brutal, it makes my health issues so much worse.  Wasn't I just complaining about the cold and all of the snow to shovel?  It feels like yesterday.  Oh well, I am thoroughly enjoying eating all of the summer veggies and fruits and my garden is bursting with tons of goodies to eat so that is a huge plus!!

Overdoing it!

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I am too tired tonight to make a picture so enjoy my pretty colors lol.  It was a long hard weekend and I felt every bit of it today when I had to get up early and trudge off to aqua therapy.  I normally look forward to it because the weightlessness is a wonderful feeling on my muscles and joints.  Today I just wanted to keep sleeping and avoid the inevitable pain of getting up and moving around.  Most days I get out of bed quickly because it hurts to lay there, but today it felt wonderful.  So of course, today I had to get up.

The therapist asked for my pain level.  I SO loathe this question. It's always just some guess and made up number.  I reserve 10 for childbirth and beyond.  I've been through a lot of pain in my life and my 4 might be your 7 so I never know what to say.  Anyhoo she wanted to know what I did this weekend that had me hurting so badly today.  I watched her face as I told her and then let it sink in all that I had done and she didn't even have to scold me.  I KNEW I had overdone it, I know that this is one reason I cannot stop being in pain, because I rarely get to STOP.  It's day after day of on my feet and on the go, but working at the produce stand brings about a special kind of pain.  I will pay for this for at least a week.  I couldn't fight the fatigue today and had to take a nap.  There are a million things to be done since I wasn't here all weekend to do it.  I can't stand looking at the mess but I hurt too bad and am just too tired to do it. 

I found a sort of second wind and knocked a few things out but this roller coaster I've been on lately has left me hopelessly behind.  The kids are helping out but it's not enough.  I seriously need a clone.  Money can't buy you happiness but it could buy me a housecleaning service that would let me get a little rest and a little less backbreaking work for sure.  Sorry to be whiny today, I allow myself a day like that once or twice a month so today is my day...

Corn Time...

While many are sitting around their backyard bbq, I will be sweaty and covered in itchy corn husk junk.  Thanks to the unusually late cold weather this spring, crops went in late and so corn is late coming in.  4th of July is the magic day for the produce stand I work at.  It will be an insanely busy day.   I am not looking forward to the back breaking work of unloading several hundred dozen ears of corn from the back of the pick-up truck.  Ahhh the bending pain!!!  Then it will be non stop bagging and boxing as people flood in.  There will barely be a moment to sit down.  Thank goodness all I have to do later is sit and watch the fireworks, after a nice long shower of course.  I will be spending the holiday as usual with one of my very best friends (26 years now) and his family.  I have a special surprise for him and can't wait.

I work all weekend so I won't have time to recover, it will be right back at it on Saturday and Sunday as well.  Monday, well don't even consider waking me up.  I will certainly be sleeping in!!!!   The true bonus this year, however, will be that I can EAT the delicious corn I'll be selling.  After my wonderful colonoscopy, my GI doctor proclaims I can eat whatever I want.  I think it will be scary after almost 4 years to eat corn, but it will be so so buttery delicious I bet.