Ugh...someday I will learn. I'm not sure when, but someday I'll learn that this is what happens when I continue to push myself and push myself. I know my body will eventually give out and I will be down and out, but the need to pay the bills and get everything done is so strong. I am so mad at myself right now. I hurt my Achilles tendon from working too hard. The doctor told me to quit one of my jobs and wear this boot and rest for THREE weeks. I laughed at him and said, who's going to pay my bills? I can't do either of those things. I am in enough pain that I will probably have to take off this week, but after that it has to be back to work. I am going to really TRY to remember to listen to my body more in the future though. Most people couldn't keep up with me, much less someone with my health conditions. I don't want to be defined by fibro or Hashimotos or IBS. I want to win them, rule them and show them who's boss. In the end, they win though. They take over and show me that's all an illusion and they do rule me.
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