Empty, empty, empty! Every store, every shelf. Either they didn't carry my probiotic or it was all gone. It's hard enough to just go to a store. It's exhausting. If you are familiar with the spoon theory, you'll understand that it takes at least half of my days spoons just to go to the doctor and the store. That's a BIG day for me right now.
I had to go to SIX stores before I found my probiotic, but I had to have it. I almost cried when I finally found it. I had 3 more stores I could go to and it was at the first of the three. I was SO incredibly relieved. I could have laid down on the floor right there in the aisle. I was so relieved that I could finally go home and warm up and get my pajamas on. The cold had started to sink in. Whenever I go out and do too much I get this cold that sets in. It gets in your bones. It's very hard to warm up from. I don't know what causes it, but I hate the feeling. I am usually hot. I want the door open when it's 30 degrees outside. Sometimes I do get chilly and put a blanket on, but my comfort temperature is always all over the place. The only time I get this "bone chilling cold" is when I have to go out and run errands though.
After the days events I am contemplating changing probiotics to one found more widely or just squirreling them away so I don't have to go through this over and over. Every month I have a hard time finding them. They work for me though and in the middle of an allergic reaction issue, I wasn't about to try a new one right now.
It's amazing how much can change in a short time. I used to work myself to death cleaning and gardening and cooking before succumbing to exhaustion. Now a trip to the store and doctor does me in. Chronic illness sucks...
I know there are others out there that have it so much worse and I sympathize completely. I wish we lived in a world without illness. If we could live our lives without pain and illness and just focus on being the best people we can, making the most of every day, wouldn't that be grand?
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